Monday, April 25, 2011

wrong April 25

so it's not my Pday. it's not April 25, 2012 (which would have been the last day of my 12th transfer and I would be done with an 18 month mission.) Well.... sometimes life doesn't go the way we plan. It's all about what He has in His plan. And when I say He and His- I mean God. He doesn't micromanage us, but if we are living righteously, we can understand and follow His will.
What I'm trying to say (in a really unclear way) is that I am no longer full-time 18 month Temple Square Sister Schroedter. I am 6 month RM Houston Sister Schroedter.
That's right- I'm home. Well not home as in heaven with God but home as in with my parents.
I was honorably released for health reasons. In a way, I saw this coming because my health is so silly. But in another way, I feel like this is a nightmare I'm going to wake up from at any second. I miss saving souls every hour of the day, laughing with my T-square sisters (esp Sis Hansen), and just being able to where the tag of Christ on my person and be His missionary and disciple.
I don't really have much to say and am honestly too emotional to talk about it anymore. I cry a lot but I have nothing to be sad about really because I got to serve full-time for 6 months, my testimony is rock solid, and I have so many blessings. I'll be okay. I've been through worse and the good thing about all trials and tests- Christ is always there.
And yesterday was Easter, so real perspective was shown and this life and the sufferings in this life really are but a small moment. Ok well being on this blog is actually really freaking me out because I feel like I'm being disobedient- haha it will take me a couple days to adjust! I barely let my mom out of sight at the grocery store today- SIGHT AND SOUND! Where's my companion?
I still feel the Holy Ghost as my companion and Comforter. If you want to talk to me- you can email me or call my house phone but as for facebook and a cell phone- I'm holding off as long as possible. Everything is freaking me out- Don't be offended if I haven't talked to you or called you about any of this- I'm trying to handle it all as best I can and not go to that dark place or get too overwhelmed.
And besides I really have only called those that are (or will be) eternally sealed to me and Kelly. Bahahahah. I love a lot of things and am counting my many many many blessings and with time, prayer, and perspective- I'm sure I'll love this new chapter I'm embarking on and gain that Godly perspective and understanding. Sorry this blog isn't what you were expecting- I really am sorry and wish it wasn't so. But I know God lives and that we have a living Savior who gave up the ghost and took up His life again so we may all live again! Luckily, these truths NEVER change- whether or not your world is shattered and completely changed- the gospel can and is always a rock :) Hallelujah!
These are some of the last moments. I love my Sister Hansen!! Smiling- one of our favorite things to do is fake it till you make it!
It seriously took 10 minutes for me to let go! I hope I didn't leave bruises- I love you Sister Hansen! You are an amazing missionary for Jesus Christ!!! I miss you!!!
One of the most selfless things I had to do and the most conflicting moments ever! I love the Utah- Salt Lake City, Temple Square mission!!!!!!!

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Never a Dull Moment!!!

Well, I don't have much time this week so this one may actually really
be semi-short! we'll see ;)
So, I just got back from Provo! Yep again! Crazy, crazy! The doctors
love me. they know me by name- I ask them how they're dog and kids are
doing- ok I'm kidding but honestly- they know me as the temple square
missionary. Joyful! What a good thing to be known for! my looks ;) my
testimony! my service to the Lord! all good things!
So this week was full of craziness! Some good! Some bad! Let's start
with the good.
Marshal is still heading toward baptism- it's now May 15 (he has to go
to church a few more times) and it will be amazing! He loved the
Georgia Atlanta Temple open house! Who wouldn't?! And his testimony is
growing more and more everyday- just like mine!
And.. BEN!!!! Remember from last week? Our other golden soldier! He's
getting baptized on Saturday! As in... 3 days! Yah Ben! It's so
amazing to see missionary work and the gospel penetrating people's
hearts all over the world!
Being with Sister Martinez is awesome! Spanish people are so golden!
We take a lot of Spanish tours and on our Spanish teaching lessons on
the phone, I understand some. And when I say "some", I mean "seriously
hardly a dang thing!" They talk so fast and I try not to zone out so I
look for key words that are similiar to French and that I know! And I
learned how to say "I know Jesus Christ is the Savior" in Spanish. So
at the end of the 10 minute lesson, I say my sentence and then just
say Si Si Si! It's powerful stuff. And I say Amen a lot throughout the
lessons and tours. Spanish people are 10 times more willing to share
the gospel with their non-member friends and loved ones and to accept
the gospel. Being soft-hearted and prepared is key! I need to try to
pick up Spanish more! Maybe I'll be fluent after a couple more lessons
and tours. Sister Martinez is awesome and one of the most faithful
disciples of Christ, I know! She thinks very clearly and everything is
very simple to her. I wish things were more black and white for me- I
know they can be- i just have to work for the gift of faith more! She
is faithful!
It's also way fun being with an ESL companion. Everything is way
funnier and more awkward at the same time. They can be bold and I
think peopel aren't as quick to be rude to us or quick to blow us off.
When they see two American flags- people can get fiesty. But when they
see a foreign flag- their hearts are softened. I don't know why but
it's true! There are challenges, but I'm learning a lot! Trying to
explain my health problems to someone still learning English- that can
be a mess.
Speaking of health problems- A LOT happened this week but all I will
say for now is that the ER staff at LDS Hospital is getting to know me
TOO well, too. I feel like my first home is temple square, my second
home is the doctors, and my third home is my apartment. Bahah that's
not right! So this week- one of the scariest things happened to me- I
thought I was having a heart attack. Now don't think that I'm looking
for attention, because I'm really not- but I'm serious when I say, I
was scared out of my mind! I was sitting in Guest Services and thought
I was having a heart attack and I couldn't move except I forced myself
to move and call my mom (p.s. President and I have an understanding so
it's not breaking rules) and my mom answers the phone and I'm bawling
and pretty much saying my "adieus" and saying "tell Chase I love him.
give the family my love. I think I need to go to the ER" and she's
like "THEN GO!? why are you on the phone!" and I see her point- but in
my mind I didn't know if I was going to make it and I needed my mom!!
So Sister Hansen comes rushing down (she's my district leader
remember) and I get put in a wheel chair (that was attractive!) and
the whole mission office is freaking out and I am rushed to the
hospital. I am there for hours and I feel a little better because i'm
hooked up to everything (of course I forgot my camera that morning at
the apartment! dang it!) and people with life-saving machines are
close now and basically now let me explain what happened.
so I was on this medicine that was HORRIBLE and I was really excited
because the 30 days were almost up and my face was going to not be a
puffy marshmallow anymore- well little did I know that the worst was
not behind me. So I was taking this medicine 3 times a day for 30 days
and on Thursday they had me stop. JUST STOP. Not taper me off slowly
or slowly reduce the dosage but just stop taking it. Well for normal
people that would be okay, but because I am the exception for
EVERYTHING- my body freaked out. Every muscle I had started getting
charlie horses. It was super painful. my calves. my forearms (have you
ever had a charlie horse there? oh my heck it hurts!) the arch of my
foot, my abdomen (who even knew you could get a charlie horse there!),
my upper and lower back muscles, and do you know what else is a
muscle? Your heart! So my heart tensed up, clenched up, and pretty
much got the biggest charlie horse EVER and that's why I thought I was
having a heart attack. It was super crazy and scary. and basically
WHAT A MESS! but I am alive! and they don't know how long these side
effects will last and I am being monitored closely and they are sorry
that they didn't taper me off slowly. Well apology accepted I suppose.
I will not sue because that won't solve anything! But I'm off all meds
now and I'm here to do missionary work another day :) Life is good! I
am so grateful to be a missionary and that I didn't die! I am not
ready to meet God yet!! Still got some work to do! Some repenting to
do! Some people to love! And some people to invite to learn more about
the gospel of Jesus Christ!
Remember that one time when I said this post is going to be shorter
than the rest? Dang it! I don't think it is!
Well, I just want you all to know I love you so much! Elder Chase
David Anderson- thank you for being the best answered prayer God has
blessed me with! I love you! Also, Louds! Browns! Schroedters!
Andersons! Ross! Brunsons! Elder Schroedter! And all of you beautiful
people out there!
This gospel is amazing and I have read some amazing talks this week
about faith because I am really trying to understand how faith works
and how I can strengthen my faith!
Here are two WAY good talks I've been studying! Enjoy
http://lds.org/ensign/2002/03/lord-increase-our-faith?lang=eng&query=increase+faith
AND
http://lds.org/general-conference/2010/10/the-transforming-power-of-faith-and-character?lang=eng&query=increase+faith+richard+scott
I love this gospel and being able to share it every single day and
focus 100% all my strength, effort, and heart in inviting all to come
closer to Jesus Christ! He has changed my life and wants us all to use
his precious gift and feel his unconditional, powerful love!

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Transfer 4 already!!!!

I can't believe today is the first day of my fourth transfer!
Craziness! I am staying in Guest Services in Cover Zone but I have a
new companion :) Her name is Sister Martinez. She is one transfer
older than me and sooooooo sweet. She is from Mexico and we've
officially been companions for 5 hours! And it's going great. She's
always smiling and I love that. I miss Sister Hansen but FEAR NOT
because she is my District Leader in Cover Zone still. Haha fantastic!
I think President wanted her close by my side to watch my health-
which has been freaking out lately but I am loving life and staying
upbeat. I actually moved out of my apartment complex today to another
area where T-square sisters stay- we have HIGH security and stay in
different places but this new house has 6 people and 1 bathroom...
uh-oh Sperry house bathroom struggles all over again. Hahah. And there
are 4 of us in one bedroom and me- being the selfless one I am- chose
to take a TOP BUNK! Am I crazy? hahah yes sir-ee but it's okay because
we all know I sleep like a rock and barely move at all when I sleep,
so I figured it made sense! 4 giddy girls in one room- we're never
going to get to sleep. It's going to be a slumber party every night!
My roommates will be Sister Martinez (obviously), Sister Shaw from NC
(LOVE HER!), and Sister H. Anderson from Denmark! And in the other
room Sister Mendez from Phillipines and Sister Fang from Taiwan! Isn't
Temple Square so unique? I love my T-Square sisters. We have such a
united bond and sisterhood in our mission.
My blog post always turn out so long but I can't help it!
P.S. Sister LJ- I got your emails :) and can't email back but look for
a letter from me and I will print off your emails and have a better
chance to read them after our Walmart run! I love you so much! Thank
you for being the most amazing trainer! You are awesome!!!!!!!! I love
you!
Oh Mom- can you tell Tonya Snow to write me :) I need her address.
Grantly- HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEEK!!!!!!!!! I love you. You are a great
example to me and I look up to you (figuratively and literally now!)
Um. Also, I need some help. I have a fan that has been searching hard
core for me on the square but because I am in Guest Services- he's
never found me. His name is Sam. He's from Cali but been going to the
LDS BC for the last 6 months and the MANY sisters who he has talked
with have described him to me but I have NO idea who he is- not a
single clue. I doubt he knows about my blog and if he does- SAM, WHO
ARE YOU? Does anyone know? It's been driving me crazy. Seriously
sometimes in the middle of companionship study or when I'm excercising
or in mid-thought, I'll just look at Sister Hansen and yelp "WHO IS
SAM?" hahahahahah.
I announced this Sunday in French again :) I love announcing! Oh man
so before I announced, we had sacrament meeting of course and it was
amazing. There is nothing like our T-square sacrament meetings! It's
amazing. Maybe for my last transfer mission talk, my Utah pepes can
come and experience it one time :) We'll see! It's not really open to
the public.Anyways so President asked myself and Sister Johnston (when
she was outbound she went into a coma and the whole mission fasted for
her a couple transfers ago- it was scary- but she is doing better)
Anyway... So this past Sunday, President asked us to get up and bear
our testimony about fasting and I was happy to do so and thank the
whole mission for their fasting and the miracles their faith on my
behalf brought into my life. I get up there and I was super humbled
and choked up of course- and just thanking everyone and I felt so much
love for my fellow sisters. Well our Visitor Center MTC teacher,
Sister Murphy was visiting our ward and her mom actually has UC and we
talked a little about what's going on with me and how amazing fasting
is and just this and that. Where I'm getting at is that she is one of
the 10 people that have noticed what all these meds are doing to me-
aka making my face blow up like a marshmallow. I'm off these meds in
TWO days- I'm stoked. I can't wait. I've actually lost weight but for
some reason my face is retaining water- it's attractive. Sister Holmes
called me out on it, Sister Murphy called me out on it, and other
close friends and sisters have called me out on it. The best was when
Sister Hansen let this slip: "If my face was doing what's happening to
your face, I'd kill myself. If I looked like you, I'd be depressed!"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I am not even exxagerating. She tried to
take it back but it was too late. It was hilarious. I laughed for like
a week about that one. My face doesn't look that bad- it's just a
little swollen. Oh man! I'm going to stop talking now about this. Back
to what really matters- like missionary work.
Guess who's getting baptized April 23? YAH MARSHAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Also, we are teaching another amazing military man named Ben! He is in
the airforce and in Mississippi! Yah Bible Belt! There are so many
golden people out there. Sister Hansen's friend on the square referred
many of his old friends from the South and we have seen some true
miracles! Ben wrote us the most amazing email about how this gospel is
exactly what he was looking for and how this new rekindled
relationship with God has changed his whole life. He went to church BY
HIMSELF on Sunday and met 2 sets of missionaries (Elders and Sisters.)
Went to gospel principles and all three hours and then signed up for
the ward softball team! WHAT? who does that? The elect! The golden!
That's who! I am so blessed to know Ben and see his progression and
hear his sweet testimony.
I also must give a shout out to Kyle! No full name dropping on here
but Kyle (aka the most awesome Canadian!) - you know who you are!
Thank you for your sweet words and Heidi will keep me posted how you
continue to just thrive with your rock solid testimony. We still want
you to send us a baptism picture!!
I think transfer #3 was all about the military because that's who we
seem to have taught the most! Yesterday I had an amazing referrral
with a man named Ramiro (he is in the army and stationed in Germany) and
we are officially teaching him tomorrow evening! But he is amazing.
His LDS friend, Manny, gave me his number and Ramiro is seriously
searching for some hope and peace! Well ta-da! I love this gospel and
all the happiness it brings to every single person's life!
Lastly, I just want to bear my testimony on how amazing missionary
work is. It's a commandment to every single soul who knows of Jesus
Christ and his divinity! I am so grateful to be serving here at Temple
Square! Chase David, thank you so much for your example and HUGE
heart! You are amazing and I love you so much! Taylor- you are a
superstar and I love you and am so grateful to be sharing this
missionary chapter in our lives together! Missionaries are awesome and
everyone should make it a life goal to go on a mission or have a
missionary experience every single day! I love you Schroedters,
Ross(es), Koskis, Andersons, Brunsons, Wilders, Fairwells, etc!
Well this blog has been kinda all over the place but it is transfer
day and new sisters came in, some sisters went home, some sisters went
to other domestic missions, I'm training Sister Martinez in Guest
Services, and we have to unpack and just have a thousand other things
to do! The mission is great and I appreciate all your prayers! Have a
great week and know God loves you! It's an absolute statement! YAY!

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

ER and GC

Oh this week is just full of acronyms! So what happened this week?
Of course we must talk about General Conference. Sister Hansen and I
did all we could to look super fresh and all photogenic for the
Ensign- we prepped all week for this. But guess what happened Friday
night? The night before our big debut- I had to go to the ER.
Ridiculous! Oh my word- these meds are craziness but luckily they're
just monitoring me close and I'll stick it out for a couple more days
and just have the doc on speed dial! This transfer has been so crazy
and I'm so glad Sister Hansen has been by my side. We didn't get home
till after midnight and for a missionary- that's unacceptable- I need
my sleep. At one point, I walked out of the hospital with just my robe
(feeling all vulnerable and exposed) and an IV in me because Sister
Crandell and Sister Hernandez came with us to the hospital but I
didn't want them to have to lose so much sleep and we were informed I
was going be there a while- so we drove them home. My theory about the
ER is that if you can drive yourself to the ER, you don't need to go
to the ER but apparently some of the side effects to my meds were
silent but deadly- I don't even know. Just spent a lot of money to be
told that I just need to wait it out. Oh my word! AND I'm pretty sure
it's super illegal to walk out of a hospital with an IV in- what if i
was a druggie. Well this is Utah and they trust me since I am a
missionary i suppose and I dipped and hurried back in time before they
even knew I was gone.
Ok so back to the amazing week I had!! The ER was just a small
highlight. Sister Hansen and I looked a little rough Saturday morning
but we still looked smokin' at the same time. It was fun seeing people
I knew during Conference! Shout out, Melissa and Ian and other pepes.
I got to go to the Saturday morning session and DID ANY OF YOU HEAR
ELDER KENT F. RICHARDS TALK???? I was a mess (in a good way) during
that talk- it was like God personally catered to my prayers and
situation. Christ is the Healer!! It was an amazing talk and I can't
wait to re-watch it and read it in the Ensign. So amazing! Also there
was a powerful moment with Sister Hansen and our fellow T-square
sisters standing up in the Conference Center singing "I Know that My
Redeemer Lives." I'll never forget this Conference. It has changed my
life! Another talk that really touched me was with Elder Richard G.
Scott and his talk about love, family, and marriage. Elder Scott has
always been special to me, especially going to see him with my BYU
girls and the Clarks! I feel so blessed to have a strong love and
partner in Chase and my other non-romantic loved ones. I am so blessed
and look forward to reading that talk again, too!
Oh P.S. Happy Birthday shout out, to my girl KINA!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!
and Happy Birthday, Sis LJ aka Alison! Woman, you need to write me.
What's your address? You want a birthday surprise then you need to
write me- or pop onto T-square and let me hug you or something!! I
love you both! Happy Birthday week :)
Kelly- your package. Thank you so much! You outdid yourself.
Hahahahaha that stalker picture you took of me on my French tour-
hilarious! It's on my wall!
Something amazing that happened this weekend was after the Sunday
afternoon Conference session, Sister Hansen and I were finally let out
of the cave and went onto the square. We were walking up the spiral
ramp to the Christus (seriously all my best stories happen there) and
I saw this super old, fragile blind lady struggling to walk down the
ramp. She looked a little crazy so I was just observing and started to
walk past her but the Spirit told me to go talk to her- so we did. I
asked her how she enjoyed her day on Temple Square and if we could
help her call someone or go anywhere. She just said she needed help
home and I asked her where she lived- she told us (kinda the ghetto of
SLC and a couple miles away) and Sister Hansen and I looked at each
other (and all the talks of service from Conference were running
through my mind) and I knew we aren't techinically allowed to go
outside our "mission" boundaries but this lady, Nancy, needed our
help. So we looked at each other and discerned that we would walk her
home. It was an amazing experience and one of the highlights of my
mission. Nancy grabbed my hand and we walked her home. She talked and
talked and really cheered up throughout our walk and was laughing by
the end of it. It was amazing to see her spirit lifted and her smile.
She had some crazy stories and I know she wasn't all the way there but
it felt so wonderful to help her. I have NO idea how she was going to
make it home safely without us, but luckily God answered her prayers
and helped us with an amazing opportunity to get to know one of his
special daughters even more. After we made it back to the square, we
walked by President Holmes' office and told him what we did to make
sure it was okay and he sat us down and taught me an amazing lesson.
He shared with us Matthew 25:31-36 and said "Sisters, you didn't walk
a blind lady home. You walked the Savior home!" Woah!! I never had
thought of that scripture in that literal way. But I know it's true.
"And the King shall answer and say unto them, Verily I say unto you,
Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my
brethren, ye have done it unto me."
I love being a missionary- it's amazing! I love the Holy Spirit and
all the truth and understanding it brings to me. This gospel is so
amazing!
Chase!! I'm glad you got Wilson's information. So for everyone else
who doesn't already know- it's a cool story- Sister Tobias and Sister
Phillips are teaching someone in CHASE'S CURRENT AREA in Brazil! I was
talking to Sister Tobias about how Chase had got transferred into
Sabara (Sister Tobias is from Belo Horizonte) and she was stoked
becuase one of their investigators hasn't been able to find local
missionaries or get a call from them! Well, I was on it! And now Chase
is on it! How exciting!! I'll keep you posted! First a Romanian
connection and now a Belo Horizonte connection! Isn't this gospel so
amazing! So universal! So for everyone.
Oh after Conference weekend, we had a party! We all met in the
Tabernacle (many members that helped us with referrals showed up too)
at 9 pm. And we sang and cheered and talked because over the 48 hour
time period we (as a mission) collected 6,455 potentials!!! That is
going to keep us busy for a while to call others and invite them to
learn more and come closer to Christ with their local missionaries and
their search to know if it's true or not!! Conference is amazing! I
can't believe it's over but the spirit of Conference is
all-year-round! We also got to sleep in until 9 am on Monday and watch
a movie (Secretariat or whatever that horse movie is called. It's all
about women power. And you know T-square is all about women!!) p.s.
watching a movie with 200 T-square sisters and half of them ESL- it
can be a challenge but it was still so good to turn my brain off for a
couple hours and just unwind and watch the movie. Movies have always
been a source for me to unwind! Oh P.S. last week's blog post was a
link to the new Joseph Smith movie- I wasn't very clear about that-
hope y'all had a chance to check it out!
This week has been amazing and so crazy! That's what a mission is! I
am so grateful to be Sister Schroedter and to wear the church's name
and the name of the Savior on my tag every day!
Oh P.S. remember Marshal? Well I sure do- because he's changed my
life! He met with the missionaries yesterday and is getting baptized
and got a PMG manual and signed up for institute and going to the
Atlanta Georgia temple re-dedication and going to serve a mission and
going to be a part of mine and Heidi's life forever! Those blessed
Floridian missionaries had no idea how prepared Marshal truly
was/is!!! Maybe President will let us fly out for his baptism-
doubtful! We also had many IRC's this week- a week of miracles.
Marshal, Clara, Lucy, Shantay!! They are all in the States- Florida,
Indiana, California, Texas!!!!
Well Sister Hansen and I are off to the Capitol and explore SLC some!!
Being a missionary is great and knowing that it's all true is amazing!
So many blessings from this gospel are not tangible but they are
eternal- knowledge, joy, love, peace, etc! Marshal, Heidi, and I had
such a good talk on the phone yesterday how the "abstract" and
"spiritual" things in life are what brings real joy! I hope you all
can partake and act on these great blessings before us! The Lord wants
to bless us, we just need to ask and act!!! I'm here for you all and
hope you all feel the love, prayers, and happiness of this gospel with
me!! All glory to God!